Monday, October 13, 2008

What I do not know of love.

Im half awake from my afternoon extended afternoon sleep.I had to sleep..I bunked college today.So it was customary.My head spins like a record!but what the hell..!lately(as usual rather)..I've deprived sleep of me.. well..Confusion!! relationships!I desperately wanna write about them..and today being a seized holiday from college, was a good day for discussion between me and my friends..How do we know its love? Whats the proof?Cliched...I know..but I was forced to think about it from some recent developments around me(dont ask..)..Ive been infatuated for like a million times in my life..right from college..and they've died out like..poof!!(not the guys..the infatuations!)..on most of the times I knew it was merely attraction..and on the other times..I knew the guy was a loser..I once read somewhere that infatuation brings out the best in the person..I guess I took it quite seriously for a while..and then..I grew up.

I had a big crush on my substitute teacher(like every girl in my class in school) so happened that the guy gave us an assignment for find out words ending with 'nation'..i searched the hell outta oxford dictionary..and when i was sure that my list of words was way ahead than anyone Else's in the class..i came to know that he had left the school.father of the Nation!

similarly..there was this guy at the coaching centre i used to study of smiles..looks..friends teasing...and then..jaundice..!!!and he never recovered!

Guy in college..big crush!i almost thought it was love..until my friend told me that he was gonna propose to some other girl in the class the next day..Crushed!

Infatuated.Crushed.Did bring the best out of me!!Out Out Out!

Anyway..There's no list here..(even if there is..there's gonna be no list HERE)..somebody once told me that love begins from infatuation..But..What if I'm infatuated towards a wrong person and that he never falls in love with me..And I keep on wasting my love on him..Would that be infatuation converting to love?Would I say that I am in love with him,when he is not?When I fall in love with someone,is it necessary that the guy also has to fall in love with me?or..Do I realize that it is love..only when he's fallen for me?Is love always a mutual feeling?Would my infatuation convert to love only when he starts to show that he likes me too..I wanna know..

Too many questions!Sleep is taking its toll on me..and by the ways..I'm writing after ages..I missed my blog..I went to goa..I had a blast..I hate to study..I hate getting up early in the morning for college..I hate goin to the college..I hate it when two people who are in love..Fight.

I just dont get the logic..Im confused..why do the expectations go sky high..that it needs some one from Krypton to fetch them back?Why do we behave like we have some supernatural powers of always being right..and the other person is merely a mis-take!

So whats more important?Time?Love?or Patience?Tell me..

Ohkay..What do u think happens in love?Do u own the other person?or..The person belongs to you?Or you belong to each other?

Is love just enough to take care of us?Or do we need more of it?Or more of other things?

Am i sounding really confused here?I think I am..I think I must stop..think some more..and write again after sometime..Meanwhile..Meanwhile..


dee said...

ur me everytime.....

dee said...

those questions are enuf to keep a knucklehead like me busy for a lifetime and more....

Daggy... said...

This is for your information that my dear friend ISHA SHARMA is finally in love.. i m sure bout this..
17 times ... yes 17 times.. (u can count) she has used the word LOVE..
chal sahi ahi isha ab tere blogs padne mein maza ayega..
Take care..

PS: i used the word count to fine the number of word.. m in senses ;)

Daggy... said...

Jitni marzi dhamki de le isha..
delete nahi karunga...

Amazish said...

lol...thats crazy!! u gotta be in your senses before saying something like that..!!!

SenSeleSS Intelligence said...
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SenSeleSS Intelligence said...

to quEstion ur feelings is an injustice to them.
i guess infatuation is a necessary stage to transcend to love.
u cant be born with an age of 6 yrs.
Its a lot of trouble when u r infatuated or in love wid a person and dont
get it in return..
but thats like stock market.. cant be sure..
but have to play.. big bucks comes with risks.. and its totally worth it..
u loose sometimes.. sometimes u hit the jackpot..
and sometime u work ur way around to the jackpot..
all's fair..

and yes its a tricky thing to decide if the other person's the right one or
i say..
go by instincts..
if u ever, even once, feel that the other person is A MIS-TAKE..
take a second look..
if the feeling persists.. rethink the relationship...
no point spoilin spoilt milk...

and its not something to take a chance wid..
it'll probably one of the most important decisions u'll take in ur
life(doesnt count if u r a president or something.. then u'd have a lot of
thinkin to do...)
play smart.. no compromises...
go out wid someone u actually wanna be wid..
no make-shifts here...
it builds up..
v have to bear u when u'll be irritated..
think abt the guy u'll b goin out wid..!!!
another infatuation is always better than another relationship... ;)

Rock on..

go.. crushin..!

* what makes me say all this....?

Well i ain't restricted here...!!!

nisha said...

i wish i had answers here bt iam as confused and lost as u r..
btw,i knw evry other crush par ye college wala kaun hai???

youhoo said...


interesting.. don know if you would go through this.. anyway..

i just feel.. love is like all human emotions.. idialize it too much (think that it must be a god sent emotion) and we mess it up.. but if you keep it human.. not god-ly.. it kinda grows on you.. and becomes good..

life is an amazing journey.. infatuation comes along at times love comes in others..

I love explaining things scintifically you know.. Darwins theory of evolution.. :)) ok ok stop yawning..
i don think you'll like it anyway.. ill not venture in that direction..

when attracted to some1 its imp that both move together.. else it will go poof-away! you will feel it dying..its imp that both are at similar levels of liking towards each other.. and that should build on its own and should build together.. if one moves too fast, the other person will surely step back.. sounds so simple isnt it.. well its the hardest thing in the world..

you cant pretend that you are less interested.. yyour body language exposes you in 1 sec.. if one trys to supress your body language you will end up being artificail and unattractive.. :))

Well, Mr Darwin's theories can be applied to explain such behaviour.. :)) but that would be at an enormous risk of sounding like a complete geek.. (not that ive not done something similar already ;) )

well i followed your orkut page, din know ill end up writing something so long.. not into bloggin but i kinda like the idea.. maybe will start something of my own sometime..

- Vikranbir

Amazish said...

Its kinda gettin all sorts of opinions about love..i should have known while i was writin it...some have fallen in it..some have come outta it..
but love is one unexplored territory..for anyone for that goin into loops
anyways..thanks for readin the blog..!! hope u have yours too soon..!

Arun Sharma said...

:) adorable blog