Why does it always rain on me?? (RBKS)

Me walking down the street in an attire so white so pristine,
During an exceptionally brilliant September evening
Watching some birds, hoping for fish, riding the wind
The volery gliding, and the schools swimming

There I see it, the perfect student amongst umpteen
The beauty of the face, the grace of the swim bedazzling
With the line and the bait I stand in the waiting
The reality dimming and the dreams winning

It noticed my smile amidst the crowd of serpentines
Took the bait on my line, teeth’s like pearls on a string
With the dish on my plate I could not stop grinning
The spirits warming and the desires cooking

What a catch makes bird hunting asinine
Hand in hand towards the horizon we start moving
Step by step, the distance abutting
The heart pumping and the mind numbing

Taking a deep breath into the water I lean
The scales so fine, and the tender fins how inviting
Holding it tight in the water I am grappling
The clouds gathering and the rain coming

To Read and Write.

Its drizzlin outside...I cant feel the humidity for a while..quite relieving..Im lovin it..all I need is a good cup of coffee..(minus the calories..ehm ..)..forget it..Let it rain..

Flashback..!!
26th June 2009.
2:00am
After a 10 min sleep..my head on the book..I woke up..It was 2am approximately..I decided to give up..my brain refused to take in no more sleepy mummbles..and my book was almost tellin me..Stop Mockin at Me..so,I thought I would sleep.and so I did..:)

Usually my friend..Swati wakes me up in the mornin..(once it so happened..that I set up the alarm for mornin..when it got off..I held the fone in my hand in sleep..and started staring at it.I thought it was Swati's and handed it over to her.."Swati..yaar tera alarm yaar.."..She stared back at me..I covered my face with the sheet and dozed off..She turned the alarm off.. So now u get it why she wakes me up in the mornin..)
Comin back to that fateful mornin..when I had to get up at 6am..and had to revise my entire syllabus...entire..complete...40 chapters!!Swat woke me up at 6am.

Swat:Wake up..its 6 am..
Isha:abhi nahi uthna..zzz..zz
6:30am
S:uthja yaar
I: kyuuun!!! cooler on karde na..
(now at this moment I dont how she must have felt..probably lookin for a axe to chop off my tongue!!)
6:45am
S: Isha,6:45 hogaye..
I:(whats so special about today..we usually wake up by 8 everyday..have tea,breakfast,read papers..and the sit for studyin by 9..why today!!)

Time!! 7:00am
I open my eyes..and see swat goin for a bath..
Enter: A Super Massive brain wave..!!
Isha: "Oh Shit!!! Aaj toh exam hai!!"
Swati gives me a weird look and says.."Toh? u forgot?"
Isha: shit yaar..I had to revise the entire stuff..Im gonna fail today..!
S: Dont matter..chal get ready now.
And I was shocked as hell..it was my prelim exam..I didnt revise..Its as good as not studyin anything..I cudnt believe what i had just done...on the day of my exam..I had forgotten I have an exam..(a thought..what if I was living alone?!)


Nevermind.(well..did I have an option?!)
9:00 am
Exam began
The invigilator handed over the question paper..Swat's roll num is immediately next to mine..I waited for her to get the paper..and turned 180 degrees immediately.
I:"Yeh aata hai?..aur yeh walaa? aur yeh..?"
Swat: "Chup kar..Woh dekh rahi hai.."
Invigilator shouts from 2 rows away: "Haan main dekh rahi hu"
I:*giggle!
*cough!


With all the knowledge I had..I wrote a decent paper..I thought..but my proff didnt..So..Sad ending to an Amnesia laden sleepy start..

Flashback
Year 2004
Month:I dont remember
Occasion: IIT prelim. (ehm..ehm..)
I DIDNT want to give the exam..I was so damn sleepy on the day of the exam.And all the IIT wannabes around me were buzzin with energy..all excited..all nervous..and me..Indifferent..unperturbed..and trust me it wasnt just math. I knew I would not know anything in the question paper.
I got the paper..and I had to sign it up before starting.I did sign it somewhere i know.But I only got to know about it when the invigilator got at my seat and asked.." Now,where do I put MY sign..?!"
I put up my signatures where the invigaltor had to sign..!!

30 minutes later.
Finished with my paper,I was fighting sleep.
I put my head down on the table and dozed off.
The same invigilator comes up to me: "Are u not well..?"
Me: "errhm..no ma'am.."(what the heck!!)
Now I think ,I should have acted more..She could have allowed me an early exit.Nevermind..I spent the next 2 hours..staring outside through the windows..(and there were hardly any good lookin guys in the class..!Wait..I thought there were one or two..Whaaat??They were too busy filling up tiny circles with "HB pencils".)

I came out of the exam centre..my friends from nearby centres were to join me.
Age old question>> "Kaisa hua?"
My age old answer>> "Mast!" ;)

Flashback
Year2003
Class 11th exams.
subject: Biology
Question: Write about Homo Sapiens. Classify men. (marks 15)
( When I saw the question..I thought my biology teacher had gone crazy.There was no classification of "men" anywhere in the book..!! What can I possibly write here!)
I dont exactly remember my answer..(the teacher probably put it up in the school biology museum!!)
My answer:
There are 5 types of men.
1.American men:
Found in USA,Canada.very tall.fair complexion.intelligent.usually green eyes.brown hair.
2.African men:
Found in Africa and South America.And some parts of north america. very dark in complexion.broad nose.good athelets.known for winnin medals in olmpics races.
3.European men:
Found in Europe.white complexion.similar to American men in most traits.
4.Chineese men:
Found in China,Japan.short height.small eyes.fair complexion.
5:Indian men.
found in India. wheatish complxion.short heighted.

After the exam.
My friend Sapna asks the Age old question>>"kaisa hua?"
Me>>" mast,lekin last question was a bouncer"
Sapna:"huh? classification of MAN..what was difficult?starting from early man,to neanderthal man to modern man homo sapiens.."
Me:* fainted!!*



For next 15 days I hoped that my paper gets lost somwhere..or the biology deptt catches fire..and it gets burned!
Result day..
Biology teacher,holding my paper with a big red cross over it: "What were you thinkin?"
Me: * smiles sheepishly*
( First, You tell me what were YOU thinkin..cudnt u just have written classify MAN..instead of MEN!..arrrgghh!!)

So much for a misprint.

Bus Blues!

Finallieeeeeeee!! Im back on the blog..I know how relieved u must be..!Seeing me here after so long..!bBeen 4 months!My blog missed me..I know I can understand..This is gettin quite emotional for me..just a sec..(...)yeah..now Im fine..
So ..!! Today is not sunday!! But today is a holiday..and how! Ask me..ohkay ohkay i know u r dieing to know(or dyeing?..I dunno I usually dye people instead of lettin them die.ehmm..)Well..Whatever...lookin at my enthu..u know I cant contain my excitement of being able to write again!!(Meanwhile Ive been writing a lot these days..thanx to untimely exams.when are they on time!..when is the time for exams..who needs exams!!!!)..Anyway..Im not gettin carried away(coz thats the idea of keepin exams!)..I had exams..I gave exams..pstt!I did cheat in a few..(hehehe)!
Ohkay..News News!! I did an extraction 2 days ago..of a tooth! the patient was at my mercy..and i was at the mercy of my shaky hands..Finally i pulled the stupid thing out of the socket!! Yippie!Done.Bring on the next one!Where are my forceps?!
Rite..So I deviated totally from the title..!bus!bus!
I get up at 7am in the morning for college and am ready at 7:30.The bus stop is about 7 mins away from my flat..and the college is 45 mins away from my stop(walking and by bus respectively.)
How I board my bus(in this case..catch my bus on time while its still standin!): When we reach halfway from the flat to the stop..our eyes start eyeing the road..To see any sign of a moving yellow thing..If we do..we run our Bags off!!(lol)coz thats our bus..Waiting for us..sometimes..some school kids..waiting for their own buses..tell us: Run faster!! the bus is waiting!(embarrasing!!)
We enter in the bus..All eyes staring at us..."Not again!"..The driver's friend says," 5minute jaldi aaya karo!"..yeah whatever...! We look for seats..and then start lookin for water..!!Gasping for air!(This happend on 2 outta 6 days a week!)
On the remaining 2 days..The bus is late..and on the last reamaning one day..We miss the bus!! Which is exactly why Im at home today
Usually what happens is..we aim to board another college bus from someother stop..Once what happend was..we took an autorockshaw to another stop..on the way I see a gang of our college students..I start to yell..I dunno what..Im too excited..so I yell anything..except..stop..stop!! My freinds cant understand me..I point..!! Students..!!Somehow they dont respond..I dont know why..!!(The auto ride is too exciting I guess!)I ask the autowala to stop..and we go and join the gang..as normal poople.
Enter: A tinee tiny college bus..with people stuffed in it.People on seats.People on people on seats.Poeple standing on floor.People standing on feet of poeple standing on floor.
Enter: Us.
Enter: Chaos.People stepping on us.We steppin on people.Banging our bags on everyone's head who's lucky enough to get a seat!!
Enter:(jagah do yaar!..hadh hai!)

Enter: College...Yaay!! We've reached..One piece!
Enter :First lecture..
Enter:ZZZ..
'Roll no.9'
'Roll no.9??'
...!
...??
'Present!! Present!!Roll no.9 Present!!'
Now, all of this precisely didnt happen today..coz we saw the yellow moving bus..just 15 steps from our place..and we got a feeling of dejavu..!hehe..!we reached the stop tryin to unthink what we were thinkin..But we saw no one standin there..a school girl tells us..: 'didi,aapki bus ko nikle huye 5 minute hogaye.!'(damn!not again!)..we were a little less courageous today..stood there for 5more minutes ..Cribbed..about the college..about the busdriver..and about the students in the bus who supposedly enjoy watching a daily marathon keepin bets on who will win today!Anyways..we're not late..Its the bus that arrives earlier than its usual time..We decide to go watch some movie today!
Someday we're gonna do the same to the bus..Make it wait for us..and then refuse to enter..!And let it miss us the entire day..

It should have been titled as 'bus yellows' instead..but how does it matter..we missed it right?

Jam...

I was readIng a novel around a year ago. "A bag of bones" by Stephen KIng. The protagonIst there was a wrIter and I swear to the Holy Cows he suffered from , what they call a "WrIter's Block" for around 120 pages....!!!

It was a major task belIeve me, to get past those 120 pages. I slogged day and nIght for hIm to get over hIs dead wIfe and start wrItiIng. By the one hundredth page I thought I was suffeIng from a "Reader's Block" I couldn't go on a step further. But then I saw 'Courage the Cowardly Dog' on CN and I was InspIred. I went ahead wIth It and found out that the guy fInds a new babe wIth a kId In the country.

Well the story really took off from there. WIth a lots of twIsts and turns and a lot of "Spooky" actIon It had a bIttersweet endIng.

Why am I tellIng you all thIs?? I don't really know. I've been held on GunPoInt to wrIte somethIng. There's a lot goIng on at present...

1) India Is on a wInnIng streak agaInst England in the ODI serIes.

2) Its almost December and I've not yet seen wInter. One of the reasons I don't lIke B'bay. Btw Its been almost a year and a half... :(

3) "Job's a joke n I'm broke" is to be the background lIne of my professIonal lIfe.

4) I've been very 'happy happy gay gay' sInce quIte a few months now... but then "Dostana" released... and I've been very 'happy happy' sInce quIte a few months now.

5) I celebrated my bIrthday a few days back. StartIng It wIth a lovely wIsh, to cuttIng pastrIes to openIng gIfts to recIvIng awesome testImonIal to goIng out wIth a frIend to a dInner wIth the famIly.

6) I've been actIng very "out of the normal" these days. *detaIls not to be gIven* Most of you guys don't know me... and I thInk I'll run the rIsk of beIng mIsunderstood... If you know what I mean... ;)

7) Bombay (cuz I lIke It better than MumbaI) Is under a terrorIst attack. Its been more than 24 hours and the fIght Is stIll on. Its stupId and horrIble. The bIggest terrorIst attack on India tIll date.

8) I'm excIted about a lot of stuff, and more excIted about the others.

9) I'm tryIng to wrIte but I dunno why.. I can't.. MIght be sufferIng from a "WrIter's Block"...!!!


Just thought you should know..

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How ya doIn...?

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The love of friendship and beyond.

I’ve had a lot of friends since childhood.And I’m not friends with all of them now.Some have got lost in time..some have disappeared with no excuses..and some..have been kicked out of my life.As I’ve grown older..The meaning of friendship has changed to me.When I was a kid..I needed a friend only to laugh along and talk to in school..As a grew older I needed frnds to go out with and share my stupid secrets with.And now..Being a 22 yr old..I need friends go be with me through all the ups and downs in my life.
Im a sensitive hopeless case at times.I have sky high expectations..and I get hurt easily..I hate explaining myself to just anyone and I hate not being understood by people who are close to me.
Things in my life relating to frndship are somehow blown outta proportion every now and then..and the shuffle mode between me and my friends is always almost on.Over the time..and now..I’ve failed to understand..that why do I fail at keeping friendships intact..Am I a sucker for attention?Or am I a case of retarded thinking?Or simply..someone who thinks a lot..Who expects a lot.
I’ve always thought that having a bunch of frnds around always..really close ones is always good than having a best friend.I haven’t really believed in the concept of a ‘best friend’ all my life..maybe it was an excuse of not being able to have one..or maybe I was to weak to admit that one of my all closest frnds was my favourite and best of the lot.

I'm in a transition state now..Where I am thinking that having a best friend than having a group of close friends might be a better idea.
It alteast saves the time u waste on being insecure and disgusted.And plus u do know whom to trust the most and whom to rely upon without thinking twice.It amuses me sometimes how drastically things change over a small period of time..of how we start to hate someone..and love someone in such a short span..
I wonder sometimes..what keeps friendship goin?Being vocal with the feelings?Being too emotive?Or being soft..Every now and then?I always thought friendship never needed testimonies…But then,people change over time..and I am people..What I have learnt is..Sometimes..just being there..is also not enough..
Im a lazy person..when I see something slipping away from my hands..I don’t bother to go catch it..I let fate play the game..Not that I wanna be miserable..I just hate to demand once I see its not required..and fate has been cruel and sarcastic..Well..most of the times..I have been lazy.
And the time when I have been anything but lazy..I’ve carried a notion that doing something for someone is obviously more important than mere talking.But my gradual realization has been that we all remember more of what people say or have said..Than what they do..or have done..How ironic is that..
I guess sometimes being a poorer version of u saves u from hurting a higher version of you…
Its like coming to terms with life..
Trying not to expect when u wanna expect the most.
Playin along when you are retired hurt.



Well someday…I’m gonna call up all of my old friends..and get in touch..No matter what..but that day is not today..Today is a different day.And its not my day.

Mirror..!!!

so I am headIng back to my place after work. It was a nIce day at offIce. not much work. enjoyed chattIn wIth my colleagues. roamed around, drank a bIt to much coffee. so I am wIde awake. Its nIce and cozy today outsIde. pleasant breeze, a bIt chIllIng but the effect Is soothIng... too good. Its a perfect day. spIc & span. nothIng was gray today.


I'm thInkIng about her. an evenIng wIth her, dInner, some wIne and a bIt of dance. lovely...!


I'm almost there. headIng up the drIveway, I'm happy and content. the day has been amazIngly satIsfyIng.


I'm at the door now, pressIng the bell, waItIng ImpatIently to barg In and kIss her...


door opens and HE says "SurprIse...!"


I am shocked. shocked out of my wIts. What In the name of god...!! I cant belIeve It. I never thought thIs can happen. how can....
I'm losIng my grIp. Its hard to stand stIll.. Its gettIng dark... I cant see anythIng... n last thIng I heard was a thudd.. I was lyIng flat on my back...


Its not so hard to ImagIne my hysterIcal state. I bet you'd take It harder than I dId.

wanna know who answered the door??



It was ME...!