tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-62662747110331987562024-03-13T12:08:47.953+05:30Loner..Dreamer..A little bit of sanity and a little bit of Me.Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-66627235235093608012012-04-15T14:22:00.001+05:302012-04-15T14:25:30.971+05:30@you cant take that back nowWhat's you Email ID?<br />
I go by 'Ummazish@gmail.com'.It's stupid,always pronounced wrong by people.I always have to correct them.<br />
"Its ummm-azish,as in amazing-ish". <br />
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But what the hell was I thinking when I made it 5 years ago.More so,what the hell was I thinking when I created my fb account,my blog with it.<br />
Here I am stuck with,what people like to call 'oomaazish'.Ive even got 'ummaa-jish'.<br />
Even 'umma-ji' once. LOL<br />
But what I started with 10 years ago on yahoo was class apart! 'isha_fun_n_cheers@yahoo.com'<br />
I must have wasted considerable time of my life typing that long idiotic email id.Also,'Cheers' has a completely different meaning now.'Fun' too.<br />
Age makes you do stuff that seems inappropriate at another age.Always.<br />
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I was kinda obsessed with the 'Ish' in my name.I've had,Magish,Amazish,Ishkimo,Indishgal..It seems so juvenile now and self obsessive.(Oh,I even had Crazyish once);)<br />
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Even you must have had your share of email Ids that u cant take back.<br />
Picture this: Bad email id's are like an annoying spouse.You are stuck with it.You have to take it to all the social gatherings.Introduce it to people.The thought of leaving it comes to your mind often,but then you think about the entire procedure of choosing a new one..going to the social meetings with it and explaining to people about what happend to the old one..and blah blah..and u drop the idea.(which is exactly the reason why I am still -Ummazish!)<br />
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All these years,I never actually tried to make an ID with my real name.So,when I was forwarding my CV to this company,'Ummazish' was covering up the entire resume with 'Iam stupid.Please dont hire me'..So I thought I'd make something that looks like,Isha Sharma.<br />
Apparently there are many Isha Sharma in the Universe.<br />
So I added 22(my birthdate)to it.Still... No.<br />
99.9%of Isha Sharmas are born on 22nd.<br />
Finally,I got something as lousy as 'isha.sharma022'. I am Bond.Of another kind.<br />
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So what did I learn with all of this.I should never judge a person by his email id.(I can have a good laugh at the funny one-but that's that). There are simply too many constraints and too many similar named people.<br />
But that not a excuse to a lameass Id.The annoying spouse analogy fits,and how!<br />
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Be back with more crazy realizations<br />
Ummazish ;)Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-68053903986463896482012-04-06T12:36:00.003+05:302012-04-06T12:59:58.660+05:30Datestorm 2!!<b>The recent turn of events in my life have been tragic,bewildering,shocking and not to mention funny.<br />
I promised myself that I won't be posting any sad entries and torture you.<br />
I'm keeping it.<br />
So,I had a few beers last night with a friend.Now, beer is overrated(no offence to the beer lovers)I'm not quite there yet.<br />
So there I am sitting..waiting for that alcoholic kick! But none.Nada!<br />
Instead,<br />
What is it with beers and peeing..seriously!!(there's gotta be an anti-dote!)<br />
Anyways,I think I might hurt quite a few sentiments there if I go on with the 'anti-beer-hooplah'..So moving on..<br />
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If you have been reading my blog,then u must have come across 'Datestorm'<br />
When I read that now,it makes me realize that after 3.5 years of a sucky relationship and 'OMG Im in louvee!' to 'Gosh,he was such a douche'. I'm back to where I started.<br />
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Hello world!<br />
-What do u call a guy who flirts with you as he treats your teeth?- A Frustrated Dentist.<br />
-What do u call a guy who is so obsessed with you,it makes you wanna cry- A Super-frustated Dentist.<br />
-What does he call you when u fail to reciprocate his obsessive feelings?- A Moron,A Loser and what was the last one...umm..Dumbass!!<br />
aaahahaha!<br />
What kinda people still have those words in their dictionary? You are so 1980!!<br />
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So I meet a guy in my gym who had been 'Eying' me from every possible way- Direct vision,through mirrors-reflection,refraction,corner of his eye,pinhole camera what not!<br />
This guy just invented a perfect 'Awww to Yikes!' line:<br />
''Excuse me, I want your help with academics-I wanna pursue Masters in Physical Education''<br />
Wham! Who does a Masters in physical education?Is there any Masters in physical education?<br />
Have u heard of someone.. ''Hi,I am Joe Nash,Masters,Quadriceps.''<br />
or ''Hi I am John Truce,Masters,Gluteus maximus.''<br />
No place for clingy macho guys!<br />
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No place for clingy,not so macho guys either!(If you know what I mean)<br />
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-What does wine turn you into?- A 'Winey'. Pronounced as 'Whiny' and occasionally has the same meaning too!<br />
-What's the difference between drinking wine with your girlfriends and with a guy you are out with, for the first time?<br />
Girl friends :'Woohoo! A break from all the loggerheads in our lives'<br />
Guy :'There is no tomorrow!'<br />
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You know what would be a great invention? A device that shuts down your body after too much alcohol after beeping 'Okay!No more alcohol for me now!I'm done.Shutting down now.Might as well get the rest parceled'!<br />
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Imagine,No more bar fights!No more drunk driving accidents! No more unwanted babies! <br />
(Of course, The anti-dote to after beer-peeing is on the top of my list of inventions)<br />
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Oh and how could I forget this one.<br />
-What do u call a guy who takes a gal out to post dinner coffee and buys her a 'smallest size' coffee(I didn't even know they served in that size!)- A little low on cash guy.<br />
-What do u call a guy who takes a gal out for a 'Pao-bhaji dinner' at a family restaurant? - definite cashless guy who will never get to go out with that girl again.<br />
(Disclaimer: Iam not against the gal paying.But Chivalry,I assume,sadly, comes at a price(pun intended). Also,the art of Chivalry should be practiced only when it makes sense.)<br />
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I say.Enough with the Pao Bhajis,Smallest size coffees,Obsessed 'lovers',Winey guys and Seekers of physical education.<br />
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Here's hoping there's no 'Datestorm 3'<br />
Cheers!! Hic!<br />
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</b>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-66410544510718337582010-12-31T19:46:00.000+05:302010-12-31T19:46:49.469+05:30The year,as I saw it.<b>Its strange how something exciting,out of the normal thing happens on a boring day,that changes the way we remember that day in future forever.No,No..this aint an intro to something utterly nice that happened to me today that I wanna share with everyone.Relax.Its not facebook.and Im still me.<br />
Anyway,compare it with a lifetime and if you really had to pick up a year that kind of molded your life to come,would you pick up 2010.? I would.<br />
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To begin with..I really struggled with living alone.Agreed, I'm not much of a people's person,but living all alone can be really tricky sometimes.The boredom kills!plays with your mind.Turns you into a maniac!<br />
Lesson learnt..you're not Joan of arc.You cant live alone and be sane at the same time.<br />
This was the year when after years of 'Trying to lose weight' and 'No thanx,Im on a diet' I finally started to lose weight.I was a happy girl with all the gyming and aerobics going for me.Little did I know..<br />
Bam!<br />
I fall sick.Like really sick.I get hospitalised for the first time and become painfully thin(by my own standards,of course)!Took away all the credit from my working out.Cruel,isn't it?<br />
Lesson learnt..you can get very sick sometimes and the 'sick -sympathies' are a pain after a while.Keep workin out,coz that yearning for food is in your genes,blood,whatever.<br />
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I party-ed a lot.And i struggled to keep up with friendships this year.Almost all my friends' converstaions started with,'where the hell are you'.<br />
The fact was.I was nowhere.I was coping up with my self-made norms and useless distinctions.Trying to replace my friends with my laptop and iPod.<br />
Lesson learnt..a lot of guys think that every drunk(read tipsy) girl is their girlfriend.And always stay in touch with friends.<br />
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I discovered my love for cooking.<br />
I blogged very less.<br />
I lost a bit of my sense of humor.<br />
I became a dentist.<br />
I struggled with relationships.<br />
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I discovered how sometimes,I lock horns with everyone and want to be alone and miserable by choice.<br />
Lesson learnt.Dont. and lower your expectations.It only makes you better.Never drink alone.<br />
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There have been times when Ive risen like a phoenix and fallen like a dead bird.There have been times when my brains just burst like a hot volcano with a piece of my brain falling on everyone I cared about.<br />
Lesson learnt..you never are that close to anyone in life that they can bear the brunt of your moods.not family,not love,not friends.And you are on your own.So u better not be evil.<br />
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You are what you think you are.and this year I've been a loser,a depressed case,a loner and a dentist.<br />
Somehow I wanted to change that.All of these things.I did.Now I am,still a dentist,pursuing to be something else.But I'm not a loser,loner or anything else.Im a believer.<br />
And i believe that if it weren't for the things that happened to me this year,I would have been still the same person that I was getting tired of.<br />
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All said and done.Goodbye 2010.I'll never forget you.<br />
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</b>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-30689284002272725072010-08-29T23:00:00.001+05:302010-08-29T23:06:27.818+05:30The blunders of The New Age.<b>Hello blog..Im back(after a year almost!)Thats a lot of time to think about something to write but sorry blog, my brain has set a permanent thinkblock on the serious side of it.<br />
And so..here I am with another frivolous post!<br />
ta-daaa!!<br />
How many times have you made blunders with your cellphone..<br />
I mean not the types when u just throw it at the wall in a mad rage(only to run towards it later to check whether your wrath exploded the battery or not)..<br />
or make it drink alcohol with you..or tea for that matter! <br />
I mean serious blunders..with the keypad..! <br />
Okay..a month ago..I was at an expensive place.Really expensive by my standards(yeah..yours too!)..I was totally psyched by this guy telling me and my friends that he would treat us for the dinner.<br />
What do I do?I type a really quick message about it to my friend with my thumb tap-dancing on the keypad..SEND! <br />
The message had to cover a real long distance actually but it didnt,it instead decided to reach the inbox of the guy sitting next to me,paying for our dinner.<br />
Now, it wasn't that bad until he read the message to me and asked me,'A madman is throwing you a treat?'<br />
If it would have saved me from the consequences,I was ready to act like a retard!Didnt.<br />
Anyway..there's a lot more to talk about than mobile phones.Ive been away for so long.<br />
There's a funny similarity between age and love.U dont know how far you've gone with it only until u stop for a second and look around u.What u see is subjective.<br />
I see young people.<br />
Just a few years ago I was like this 18-19 yr old girl..happy,funny,lousy,stupid with no fear of vaulting my limits of sanity..and still be 'sweet' to everyone.<br />
And now,a few years later..Im supposed to be this matured,mannered,genteel young woman who understands the nuances of life..with no room for foolishness and jabber..(needless to say,Im silent most of the times).<br />
Funny thing is,it all settles in,in a while.Why? I dont know.<br />
I guess the comparison I made with love is true.You just dont know why!<br />
There are so many things to care about now.When I was 18..I just had to worry about one thing while dressing up- I am looking fat in this too!<br />
And now..well,besides the above mentioned,I worry whether I look too mature,whether this is too flashy,too teenagerish..why!! <br />
Who wants to grow up!!I was happy being stupid and silly naturally.like the one who made blunders like I mentioned above almost everyday and not feel a thing about them.<br />
Age hits like a landslide sometimes..sliding away the land beneath the ageing feet!!<br />
Well,that's a lot said and shared for a while.<br />
Be back with more.<br />
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</b>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-65537545051274010072009-12-25T18:46:00.003+05:302009-12-25T18:54:12.919+05:30Have you ever..<b>-Missed a song?Just remembered it like a distant memory and tried to search it out.<br />
<br />
-Ever felt befriended by a song..like its talking to you..guiding you out of your misery..your sadness..or just brightening up your mood..making pleasant things seem even better..sometimes bringing up a smile on your expression less face..<br />
<br />
-Ever loved a song so much to listen to it 15 times at a stretch..without getting bored of it..<br />
<br />
-Speaking of which,have you ever irritated your friends around you with the way the sheer magic of a single song's repetition works on you..<br />
<br />
-Listened to a great new song..caught up a single hummable line from it..and hummed it 50 times a day?<br />
<br />
-Experienced the soothing power of your favorite song during a 5 minute break from hours of continous studying?<br />
<br />
-Sung along your favorite rock song till the maximum allowance limit of your vocal cords?<br />
<br />
-Talked really loud to people around you with earphones in your ears?<br />
<br />
-Got weird looks from people around you when you talked that loud?!<br />
<br />
-Ever known what its like to listen to music on the last bench in a most boring lecture under constant fear of being caught?<br />
<br />
-Had a favorite 'Dance Song'..upon listening to which,you and your friends burst into alien dance moves?<br />
<br />
-Stumbled upon a great song on your iPod and pressed 'Increase volume' 4 times extra even after its on maximum level? <br />
<br />
-Sang a 'Situational Song' around your friend and his/her latest crush and had your share of choicest words later?<br />
<br />
-Been caught dancing in front of the mirror?<br />
<br />
-Broken your leg,got adviced bedrest,unable to sleep of the pain..became aware how a single album you listened to that time..will always make you remember those days..<br />
<br />
-Played your music loud enough to not let your mind wander around something bothersome?<br />
<br />
-Hummed a song to your self when you were nervous?<br />
<br />
-Listened to a song and instantly wanted to dedicate it to someone?<br />
<br />
-Experienced the magic of a single magical song working on a near broken heart?<br />
<br />
-Listened to an intense love song and thought of someone?<br />
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<br />
In other words do you share with me..any part of my musical story?<br />
:)</b>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-68515451654307305892009-12-03T18:52:00.002+05:302009-12-03T18:58:27.060+05:30Covered in Darkness<b>I had a very dreamy sleep last night.<br />
Very shocking yet very subtle..<br />
Very dark yet enlightening..<br />
Very funny yet very creepy.<br />
In the dream,I see myself as myself and my sister with <br />
me.We were in this really dark movie theatre.The screen <br />
was dark and I wasnt able to see anything.After about 10 <br />
mins..everyone gasped in astonishment..and said <br />
something like.."They should'nt show something like <br />
that.." (apparently referring to an adult scene).<br />
I became very confused and asked my sister.."What did <br />
they show..I couldnt see anyting"..<br />
On the way back home..I couldnt see anything on the <br />
road..it was dark I thought..<br />
Eventually I realized in the dream that I was turning <br />
'nightblind'.I remember how I was thinkin in the dream <br />
about vitamin A tablets(the deficiency of which causes <br />
nightblindness).<br />
And then somebody asked me about my 'condition'..I <br />
clearly remember myself tellin him..'I have Nightopia'<br />
(on lines of myopia)..<br />
Suddenly I woke up and was relieved to come back to <br />
light.<br />
I opened up the day's newspaper..<br />
2nd dec 2009. 25th anniversary of UCIL Bhopal gas-leak <br />
Tragedy..<br />
It had pictures of people who died and of those who lost <br />
their eyesights because of the gas leak.<br />
A simple dream of not being able to see in the night <br />
freaked me out..I can only imagine how it is like for <br />
people who lose their eyesights for day,night..for <br />
everytime..for all their life.<br />
It must just not be about not being able to see the <br />
sunset or rise..or the sky or the water..It must be <br />
about seeing a black cubicle around with the walls<br />
ever closing onto oneself.<br />
The first thing I was worried about in the dream when I <br />
realized that I cudnt see anymore..was..I lacked a <br />
capability that every 'normal' person around me had.It <br />
was fear,a worry..of falling back behind everyone..like <br />
running loose blindfolded tryin to catch something or <br />
someone when all the others lookin at you.. laughin at <br />
you..know that you are headed in the wrong direction.<br />
A blind person's world must be way smaller than ours.It <br />
must be way tougher..meaner..creepier than ours.The <br />
phrase 'a ray of hope' must have different meaning to <br />
him.<br />
Ive had 'Eye issues' myself..when I was 10,I used to <br />
blink my eyes twice every second..It wasnt a very sweet <br />
time..I once won a singing competition at that <br />
time..later I found seniors imitating me..or my eyelids <br />
for that matter in the classroom..It sent big jolts to <br />
my self-esteem..<br />
Fact is I wasnt bothered about the blinking..I was <br />
bothered about the mocking..needless to say..I rushed to <br />
a doc who took care of my eye muscles.<br />
<br />
Ive never known a visually impaired person <br />
personally..but somehow I think that the loss of vision <br />
would be a lesser deal than losing the guiding light in <br />
this ever darkening ruthless world..<br />
I wouldnt have thought all this if it werent for the <br />
dream.Before that I never had a thought for visually <br />
impaired people.All I had was sympathy.<br />
And I will carry the thought forward..It wont be a bad <br />
idea if now I pledge to donate my eyes after I die..<br />
So what if they start blinkin twice per second <br />
again..or suffer from 'Nightropia' in dreams..They might <br />
break the walls of someone's dark cubicle..who knows..<br />
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</b>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-90681993058701026362009-11-12T18:06:00.000+05:302009-11-12T18:06:16.952+05:30Version 23i.<b>Two and a half months its been..Im at home..with nothing on my hands..There's just one blog entry that Ive made during these holidays..I made more during my exams..<br />
So you can understand how dead my brain is these days.<br />
I was at my sister's place for quite sometime ..where I did a lot of new stuff(besides trying out new drinks).. a lot of different stuff..<br />
Well lets start with the airport..<br />
Banglore airport.<br />
I had just collected my luggage and was leaving.Suddenly a Firang appears before me and with all the politeness that she could gather,She asks me..''Excuse me..what flight did u come from?''<br />
And ..I dunno..as if I wanted to stamp Bangalore with my stupidity..I replied back with all the decency and as if I was the busiest woman in the world..'' Air India .''<br />
2 seconds later..I said to myself..what the hell were you thinkin..!why would she want to know what flight you took..jerk!<br />
4seconds later..I called up my sis and shared my latest story of stupidity with her.I had arrived.Hello Bangalore.<br />
<br />
The aerobics classes that I'd joined there were quite ''Dancy' for me..now since it was my first class I cud hardly do all the steps..(now dont judge me..no one can !!)..So I just sat aside for a little breather..<br />
Track changes..<br />
Next Track:Where's the party tonite!!<br />
Im taken into a flashback of hostel..where me with my two roommates danced the room out on this song..!!Whoa! I jumped in like you see all the people in Glucon-D ads..!I didnt know what I was doin..but the instructor had a good laugh and later tells my sis..''She's just here for fun..just enjoyin the muusiccc!!''<br />
Well..I did.<br />
The story of the swimming pool is a little different coz of my unique but funny swim suit...(immediately curbing your stupid ideas)..I called my suit.."The Tellytubby Suit"..for those who dont know..good that u dont.<br />
The first day I kicked so hard in the water with my right foot that I broke my left foot's toe nail..hehe..!!But that didnt stop me from being a total madness in water..<br />
A few days later..like usual I was goofing around in the pool..and like the pool wanted me to stamp it too with my stupidity..I mistook a well grown (big bellied )man for my bro.Not a big deal,unless u know that I used to do a lot of literal 'Leg-Pulling' in the pool with bhai!!Picture that now.<br />
Ah..I love to try to swim!! ;)<br />
The thing that I found most fruitful was the gym..It has made me a less lazy person.yes.:)<br />
Well..I am a better version of myself now..proudly!<br />
And the thing with becoming a better version of yourself is that it gives birth to a bunch of better upgraded newer versions of you in your mind,which obviously make you feel outdated.<br />
So here I am ..So new..and so wanting to outdate the newer me.</b>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-53852116216727014092009-10-03T22:25:00.003+05:302009-10-03T22:43:03.600+05:30LOL..!<span style="font-weight:bold;">Hey.<br />So what was your childhood ambition?<br />My parents had a tough time from changing mine from 'Bollywood Herione' to 'Doctor'.Anyways..When I was too young to come to any conclusion about my acting skills..I always thought I had the hair..the figure..complexion to be a 'herione'..And then..I grew up.<br />And with that,any sort of acting skills I ever had..disappeared..and now..acting? me?You've gotta be kiddin me!<br />The point is..that there have been instances when I had to act..and it was very important for me to act.Really,Really important.<br />But there's this thing about being in a fake situation or creating one..that just tosses me off from my normal behaviour..<br />Picture this..<br />1st april.<br />We're befooling a friend by first makin her believe that one of my other friend is in a 8 yr old secret relationship and now the guy wants to break up with her coz she's refusin to have sex with him.Second,we're gonna make the first friend talk to the guy..To try and understand..and Blah Blah..<br />Easy stuff..rite..but if you were me..how would you blow it up?Picture this.<br />We're on the hostel terrace..at 10pm..the gag is being enacted..and nobody wants me to do anything but to just be there..you know..just be a part of the crowd..dont act..just stand there.<br /><br />Well..everybody is tryin to act like they're all so sad...and deeply,truly deeply concerned..next I know..As soon as she started to say, ''Now he wants to have sex with me otherwise..''..and.. I lost it!!I was rollin on the terrace laughin..!Literally..my eyes were watery and my stomach was achin from the laughs...Naturally I had to say something now.. and boy..did I mess it up!<br />''You tell him..hahaha..that physicality is..hehe..is not the only thing..hahahaha..you've got to connect more first..to connect heehehe..otherwise!"<br />I blew it up!<br /><br />There was this rented place we friends were livin in..there was this friend(who was a guy and obviously was not allowed by the landlords on the 2nd floor where we stayed..)we could not sneak him in..and so we decided on the spot that he was gonna be one of ours 'Bhaiya'..!I remember one of my friends sayin..''Isko toh sabse peeche rakhna!She'll laugh and make the lie so evident.'' But people,we did let the guy in..and I did laugh in front of the landlords while the lie was being planted! And 'Bhaiya' had a nice lieproof stay!<br /><br />Its funny how damaging college property simply liberates you from the anxiety of the viva..and you end up givin a 'Laughin Viva' where all the answers begin with,'' Hehe!''..and end with,''I dunno sir.''..Im lucky.He was just an assistant professor..and yeah..I broke the tiles on the slab where the microscope was kept, seconds before my viva.My teacher saw me breakin them and also while i was tryin to fix them. But I passed.<br /><br />What do u say to your math teacher when you are a 6 year old and are not comfortable in the class and want to go to home early?<br />''Ma'am,my stomach is not feeling well.'' <br />I did that.<br />My teacher laughed her head off..And also she reminded me of it in 12th standard in front of my other friends..!Oh,ma'am!! ma'am-it!!<br /><br />So its been there from the childhood u know..the lack of acting skills..the power to tell the people..<br />c'mon guys,I cannot be kiddin you!<br />I am too true to be fake!<br />ehm.. and thats that.</span>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-16993412798984052632009-09-13T12:06:00.003+05:302009-09-24T12:40:44.723+05:30Why does it always rain on me?? (RBKS)<span style="font-weight:bold;">Me walking down the street in an attire so white so pristine,<br />During an exceptionally brilliant September evening<br />Watching some birds, hoping for fish, riding the wind<br />The volery gliding, and the schools swimming <br /> <br />There I see it, the perfect student amongst umpteen<br />The beauty of the face, the grace of the swim bedazzling<br /> With the line and the bait I stand in the waiting<br />The reality dimming and the dreams winning<br /><br />It noticed my smile amidst the crowd of serpentines<br />Took the bait on my line, teeth’s like pearls on a string <br />With the dish on my plate I could not stop grinning<br />The spirits warming and the desires cooking<br /><br />What a catch makes bird hunting asinine<br />Hand in hand towards the horizon we start moving<br />Step by step, the distance abutting<br />The heart pumping and the mind numbing<br /><br />Taking a deep breath into the water I lean<br />The scales so fine, and the tender fins how inviting <br />Holding it tight in the water I am grappling<br />The clouds gathering and the rain coming<span style="font-weight:bold;"></span></span>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-61144530186902671082009-07-14T16:12:00.007+05:302009-07-14T17:53:35.128+05:30To Read and Write.<strong>Its drizzlin outside...I cant feel the humidity for a while..quite relieving..Im lovin it..all I need is a good cup of coffee..(minus the calories..ehm ..)..forget it..Let it rain..<br /><br />Flashback..!!<br />26th June 2009.<br />2:00am<br />After a 10 min sleep..my head on the book..I woke up..It was 2am approximately..I decided to give up..my brain refused to take in no more sleepy mummbles..and my book was almost tellin me..Stop Mockin at Me..so,I thought I would sleep.and so I did..:)<br /><br />Usually my friend..Swati wakes me up in the mornin..(once it so happened..that I set up the alarm for mornin..when it got off..I held the fone in my hand in sleep..and started staring at it.I thought it was Swati's and handed it over to her.."Swati..yaar tera alarm yaar.."..She stared back at me..I covered my face with the sheet and dozed off..She turned the alarm off.. So now u get it why she wakes me up in the mornin..)<br />Comin back to that fateful mornin..when I had to get up at 6am..and had to revise my entire syllabus...entire..complete...40 chapters!!Swat woke me up at 6am.<br /><br />Swat:Wake up..its 6 am..<br />Isha:abhi nahi uthna..zzz..zz<br />6:30am<br />S:uthja yaar<br />I: kyuuun!!! cooler on karde na..<br />(now at this moment I dont how she must have felt..probably lookin for a axe to chop off my tongue!!)<br />6:45am<br />S: Isha,6:45 hogaye..<br />I:(whats so special about today..we usually wake up by 8 everyday..have tea,breakfast,read papers..and the sit for studyin by 9..why today!!)<br /><br />Time!! 7:00am<br />I open my eyes..and see swat goin for a bath..<br />Enter: A Super Massive brain wave..!!<br />Isha: "Oh Shit!!! Aaj toh exam hai!!"<br />Swati gives me a weird look and says.."Toh? u forgot?"<br />Isha: shit yaar..I had to revise the entire stuff..Im gonna fail today..!<br />S: Dont matter..chal get ready now.<br />And I was shocked as hell..it was my prelim exam..I didnt revise..Its as good as not studyin anything..I cudnt believe what i had just done...on the day of my exam..I had forgotten I have an exam..(a thought..what if I was living alone?!)<br /><br /><br />Nevermind.(well..did I have an option?!)<br />9:00 am<br />Exam began<br />The invigilator handed over the question paper..Swat's roll num is immediately next to mine..I waited for her to get the paper..and turned 180 degrees immediately.<br />I:"Yeh aata hai?..aur yeh walaa? aur yeh..?"<br />Swat: "Chup kar..Woh dekh rahi hai.."<br />Invigilator shouts from 2 rows away: "Haan main dekh rahi hu"<br />I:*giggle!<br />*cough!<br /><br /><br />With all the knowledge I had..I wrote a decent paper..I thought..but my proff didnt..So..Sad ending to an Amnesia laden sleepy start..<br /><br />Flashback<br />Year 2004<br />Month:I dont remember<br />Occasion: IIT prelim. (ehm..ehm..)<br />I DIDNT want to give the exam..I was so damn sleepy on the day of the exam.And all the IIT wannabes around me were buzzin with energy..all excited..all nervous..and me..Indifferent..unperturbed..and trust me it wasnt just math. I knew I would not know anything in the question paper.<br />I got the paper..and I had to sign it up before starting.I did sign it somewhere i know.But I only got to know about it when the invigilator got at my seat and asked.." Now,where do I put MY sign..?!"<br />I put up my signatures where the invigaltor had to sign..!!<br /><br />30 minutes later.<br />Finished with my paper,I was fighting sleep.<br />I put my head down on the table and dozed off.<br />The same invigilator comes up to me: "Are u not well..?"<br />Me: "errhm..no ma'am.."(what the heck!!)<br />Now I think ,I should have acted more..She could have allowed me an early exit.Nevermind..I spent the next 2 hours..staring outside through the windows..(and there were hardly any good lookin guys in the class..!Wait..I thought there were one or two..Whaaat??They were too busy filling up tiny circles with "HB pencils".)<br /><br />I came out of the exam centre..my friends from nearby centres were to join me.<br />Age old question>> "Kaisa hua?" <br />My age old answer>> "Mast!" ;)<br /><br />Flashback<br />Year2003<br />Class 11th exams.<br />subject: Biology<br />Question: Write about Homo Sapiens. Classify men. (marks 15)<br />( When I saw the question..I thought my biology teacher had gone crazy.There was no classification of "men" anywhere in the book..!! What can I possibly write here!)<br />I dont exactly remember my answer..(the teacher probably put it up in the school biology museum!!)<br />My answer:<br />There are 5 types of men.<br />1.American men:<br />Found in USA,Canada.very tall.fair complexion.intelligent.usually green eyes.brown hair.<br />2.African men:<br />Found in Africa and South America.And some parts of north america. very dark in complexion.broad nose.good athelets.known for winnin medals in olmpics races.<br />3.European men:<br />Found in Europe.white complexion.similar to American men in most traits.<br />4.Chineese men:<br />Found in China,Japan.short height.small eyes.fair complexion.<br />5:Indian men.<br />found in India. wheatish complxion.short heighted.<br /><br />After the exam.<br />My friend Sapna asks the Age old question>>"kaisa hua?"<br />Me>>" mast,lekin last question was a bouncer"<br />Sapna:"huh? classification of MAN..what was difficult?starting from early man,to neanderthal man to modern man homo sapiens.."<br />Me:* fainted!!*<br /><br /><br /><br />For next 15 days I hoped that my paper gets lost somwhere..or the biology deptt catches fire..and it gets burned!<br />Result day..<br />Biology teacher,holding my paper with a big red cross over it: "What were you thinkin?"<br />Me: * smiles sheepishly*<br />( First, You tell me what were YOU thinkin..cudnt u just have written classify MAN..instead of MEN!..arrrgghh!!)<br /><br />So much for a misprint.</strong>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-22833761969561890122009-03-23T19:28:00.002+05:302009-03-23T19:30:57.562+05:30Bus Blues!Finallieeeeeeee!! Im back on the blog..I know how relieved u must be..!Seeing me here after so long..!bBeen 4 months!My blog missed me..I know I can understand..This is gettin quite emotional for me..just a sec..(...)yeah..now Im fine..<br />So ..!! Today is not sunday!! But today is a holiday..and how! Ask me..ohkay ohkay i know u r dieing to know(or dyeing?..I dunno I usually dye people instead of lettin them die.ehmm..)Well..Whatever...lookin at my enthu..u know I cant contain my excitement of being able to write again!!(Meanwhile Ive been writing a lot these days..thanx to untimely exams.when are they on time!..when is the time for exams..who needs exams!!!!)..Anyway..Im not gettin carried away(coz thats the idea of keepin exams!)..I had exams..I gave exams..pstt!I did cheat in a few..(hehehe)!<br />Ohkay..News News!! I did an extraction 2 days ago..of a tooth! the patient was at my mercy..and i was at the mercy of my shaky hands..Finally i pulled the stupid thing out of the socket!! Yippie!Done.Bring on the next one!Where are my forceps?!<br />Rite..So I deviated totally from the title..!bus!bus!<br />I get up at 7am in the morning for college and am ready at 7:30.The bus stop is about 7 mins away from my flat..and the college is 45 mins away from my stop(walking and by bus respectively.)<br />How I board my bus(in this case..catch my bus on time while its still standin!): When we reach halfway from the flat to the stop..our eyes start eyeing the road..To see any sign of a moving yellow thing..If we do..we run our Bags off!!(lol)coz thats our bus..Waiting for us..sometimes..some school kids..waiting for their own buses..tell us: Run faster!! the bus is waiting!(embarrasing!!)<br />We enter in the bus..All eyes staring at us..."Not again!"..The driver's friend says," 5minute jaldi aaya karo!"..yeah whatever...! We look for seats..and then start lookin for water..!!Gasping for air!(This happend on 2 outta 6 days a week!)<br />On the remaining 2 days..The bus is late..and on the last reamaning one day..We miss the bus!! Which is exactly why Im at home today <br />Usually what happens is..we aim to board another college bus from someother stop..Once what happend was..we took an autorockshaw to another stop..on the way I see a gang of our college students..I start to yell..I dunno what..Im too excited..so I yell anything..except..stop..stop!! My freinds cant understand me..I point..!! Students..!!Somehow they dont respond..I dont know why..!!(The auto ride is too exciting I guess!)I ask the autowala to stop..and we go and join the gang..as normal poople.<br />Enter: A tinee tiny college bus..with people stuffed in it.People on seats.People on people on seats.Poeple standing on floor.People standing on feet of poeple standing on floor.<br />Enter: Us.<br />Enter: Chaos.People stepping on us.We steppin on people.Banging our bags on everyone's head who's lucky enough to get a seat!! <br />Enter:(jagah do yaar!..hadh hai!)<br /><br />Enter: College...Yaay!! We've reached..One piece!<br />Enter :First lecture..<br />Enter:ZZZ..<br />'Roll no.9' <br />'Roll no.9??'<br />...!<br />...??<br />'Present!! Present!!Roll no.9 Present!!'<br />Now, all of this precisely didnt happen today..coz we saw the yellow moving bus..just 15 steps from our place..and we got a feeling of dejavu..!hehe..!we reached the stop tryin to unthink what we were thinkin..But we saw no one standin there..a school girl tells us..: 'didi,aapki bus ko nikle huye 5 minute hogaye.!'(damn!not again!)..we were a little less courageous today..stood there for 5more minutes ..Cribbed..about the college..about the busdriver..and about the students in the bus who supposedly enjoy watching a daily marathon keepin bets on who will win today!Anyways..we're not late..Its the bus that arrives earlier than its usual time..We decide to go watch some movie today!<br />Someday we're gonna do the same to the bus..Make it wait for us..and then refuse to enter..!And let it miss us the entire day..<br /><br />It should have been titled as 'bus yellows' instead..but how does it matter..we missed it right?Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-38563164361822387082008-11-27T22:59:00.003+05:302008-11-27T23:37:31.722+05:30Jam...<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">I was readIng a novel around a year ago. "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">A bag of bones</span>" by Stephen KIng. The protagonIst there was a wrIter and I swear to the Holy Cows he suffered from , what they call a "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">WrIter's Block</span></span>" for around <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">120</span></span> pages....!!!<br /><br />It was a major task belIeve me, to get past those 120 pages. I slogged day and nIght for hIm to get over hIs dead wIfe and start wrItiIng. By the one hundredth page I thought I was suffeIng from a "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Reader's Block</span></span>" I couldn't go on a step further. But then I saw '<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Courage the Cowardly Dog</span>' on CN and I was InspIred. I went ahead wIth It and found out that the guy fInds a new babe wIth a kId In the country.<br /><br />Well the story really took off from there. WIth a lots of twIsts and turns and a lot of "Spooky" actIon It had a bIttersweet endIng.<br /><br />Why am I tellIng you all thIs?? I don't really know. I've been held on GunPoInt to wrIte somethIng. There's a lot goIng on at present...<br /><br />1) India Is on a wInnIng streak agaInst England in the ODI serIes.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />2) Its almost December and I've not yet seen wInter. One of the reasons I don't lIke B'bay. Btw Its been almost a year and a half... :(</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />3) "Job's a joke n I'm broke" is to be the background lIne of my professIonal lIfe.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />4) I've been very '</span><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">happy happy gay gay</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">' sInce quIte a few months now... but then "Dostana" released... and I've been very '</span><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">happy happy</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">' sInce quIte a few months now.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />5) I celebrated my bIrthday a few days back. StartIng It wIth a lovely wIsh, to cuttIng pastrIes to openIng gIfts to recIvIng awesome testImonIal to goIng out wIth a frIend to a dInner wIth the famIly.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />6) I've been actIng very "out of the normal" these days. *detaIls not to be gIven* Most of you guys don't know me... and I thInk I'll run the rIsk of beIng mIsunderstood... If you know what I mean... ;)</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />7) Bombay (cuz I lIke It better than MumbaI) Is under a terrorIst attack. Its been more than 24 hours and the fIght Is stIll on. Its stupId and horrIble. The bIggest terrorIst attack on India tIll date.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />8) I'm excIted about a lot of stuff, and more excIted about the others.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><br />9) I'm tryIng to wrIte but I dunno why.. I can't.. MIght be sufferIng from a "WrIter's Block"...!!!<br /><br /><br />Just thought you should know..<br /><br />Btw...<br />How ya doIn...?</span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-18481435502466514502008-11-19T23:36:00.002+05:302008-11-21T23:46:46.752+05:30What u might like as well..<a href="http://her-me-convos.blogspot.com/">http://her-me-convos.blogspot.com/</a>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-15488185685960344472008-11-14T00:05:00.001+05:302008-11-14T08:12:12.022+05:30The love of friendship and beyond.<strong>I’ve had a lot of friends since childhood.And I’m not friends with all of them now.Some have got lost in time..some have disappeared with no excuses..and some..have been kicked out of my life.As I’ve grown older..The meaning of friendship has changed to me.When I was a kid..I needed a friend only to laugh along and talk to in school..As a grew older I needed frnds to go out with and share my stupid secrets with.And now..Being a 22 yr old..I need friends go be with me through all the ups and downs in my life.<br />Im a sensitive hopeless case at times.I have sky high expectations..and I get hurt easily..I hate explaining myself to just anyone and I hate not being understood by people who are close to me.<br />Things in my life relating to frndship are somehow blown outta proportion every now and then..and the shuffle mode between me and my friends is always almost on.Over the time..and now..I’ve failed to understand..that why do I fail at keeping friendships intact..Am I a sucker for attention?Or am I a case of retarded thinking?Or simply..someone who thinks a lot..Who expects a lot.<br />I’ve always thought that having a bunch of frnds around always..really close ones is always good than having a best friend.I haven’t really believed in the concept of a ‘best friend’ all my life..maybe it was an excuse of not being able to have one..or maybe I was to weak to admit that one of my all closest frnds was my favourite and best of the lot.<br /><br />I'm in a transition state now..Where I am thinking that having a best friend than having a group of close friends might be a better idea.<br />It alteast saves the time u waste on being insecure and disgusted.And plus u do know whom to trust the most and whom to rely upon without thinking twice.It amuses me sometimes how drastically things change over a small period of time..of how we start to hate someone..and love someone in such a short span..<br />I wonder sometimes..what keeps friendship goin?Being vocal with the feelings?Being too emotive?Or being soft..Every now and then?I always thought friendship never needed testimonies…But then,people change over time..and I am people..What I have learnt is..Sometimes..just being there..is also not enough..<br />Im a lazy person..when I see something slipping away from my hands..I don’t bother to go catch it..I let fate play the game..Not that I wanna be miserable..I just hate to demand once I see its not required..and fate has been cruel and sarcastic..Well..most of the times..I have been lazy.<br />And the time when I have been anything but lazy..I’ve carried a notion that doing something for someone is obviously more important than mere talking.But my gradual realization has been that we all remember more of what people say or have said..Than what they do..or have done..How ironic is that..<br />I guess sometimes being a poorer version of u saves u from hurting a higher version of you…<br />Its like coming to terms with life..<br />Trying not to expect when u wanna expect the most.<br />Playin along when you are retired hurt.<br /><br /><br /><br />Well someday…I’m gonna call up all of my old friends..and get in touch..No matter what..but that day is not today..Today is a different day.And its not my day.<br /><br /> </strong>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-19598935144496059452008-11-09T15:28:00.002+05:302008-11-09T15:33:38.294+05:30Mirror..!!!so I am headIng back to my place after work. It was a nIce day at offIce. not much work. enjoyed chattIn wIth my colleagues. roamed around, drank a bIt to much coffee. so I am wIde awake. Its nIce and cozy today outsIde. pleasant breeze, a bIt chIllIng but the effect Is soothIng... too good. Its a perfect day. spIc & span. nothIng was gray today. <br /><br /><br />I'm thInkIng about her. an evenIng wIth her, dInner, some wIne and a bIt of dance. lovely...!<br /><br /><br />I'm almost there. headIng up the drIveway, I'm happy and content. the day has been amazIngly satIsfyIng.<br /><br /><br />I'm at the door now, pressIng the bell, waItIng ImpatIently to barg In and kIss her...<br /><br /><br />door opens and HE says "SurprIse...!"<br /><br /><br />I am shocked. shocked out of my wIts. What In the name of god...!! I cant belIeve It. I never thought thIs can happen. how can....<br />I'm losIng my grIp. Its hard to stand stIll.. Its gettIng dark... I cant see anythIng... n last thIng I heard was a thudd.. I was lyIng flat on my back...<br /><br /><br />Its not so hard to ImagIne my hysterIcal state. I bet you'd take It harder than I dId.<br /><br />wanna know who answered the door??<br /><br /><br /><br />It was ME...!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-52489002473264373732008-10-13T18:48:00.006+05:302008-10-13T22:50:24.357+05:30What I do not know of love.<span style="color:#3333ff;"><strong>Im half awake from my afternoon sleep..my extended afternoon sleep.I had to sleep..I bunked college today.So it was customary.My head spins like a record!but what the hell..!lately(as usual rather)..I've deprived sleep of me..</strong><br /><br /><strong>aammm..so well..Confusion!! relationships!I desperately wanna write about them..and today being a seized holiday from college, was a good day for discussion between me and my friends..How do we know its love? Whats the proof?Cliched...I know..but I was forced to think about it from some recent developments around me(dont ask..)..Ive been infatuated for like a million times in my life..right from school..to college..and they've died out like..poof!!(not the guys..the infatuations!)..on most of the times I knew it was merely attraction..and on the other times..I knew the guy was a loser..I once read somewhere that infatuation brings out the best in the person..I guess I took it quite seriously for a while..and then..I grew up.</strong><br /><br /><strong>I had a big crush on my substitute teacher(like every girl in my class in school)..it so happened that the guy gave us an assignment for find out words ending with 'nation'..i searched the hell outta oxford dictionary..and when i was sure that my list of words was way ahead than anyone Else's in the class..i came to know that he had left the school.father of the Nation!</strong><br /><br /><strong>similarly..there was this guy at the coaching centre i used to study at..exchange of smiles..looks..friends teasing...and then..jaundice..!!!and he never recovered!</strong><br /><br /><strong>Guy in college..big crush!i almost thought it was love..until my friend told me that he was gonna propose to some other girl in the class the next day..Crushed!</strong><br /><br /><strong>Infatuated.Crushed.Did bring the best out of me!!Out Out Out!</strong><br /><br /><strong>Anyway..There's no list here..(even if there is..there's gonna be no list HERE)..somebody once told me that love begins from infatuation..But..What if I'm infatuated towards a wrong person and that he never falls in love with me..And I keep on wasting my love on him..Would that be infatuation converting to love?Would I say that I am in love with him,when he is not?When I fall in love with someone,is it necessary that the guy also has to fall in love with me?or..Do I realize that it is love..only when he's fallen for me?Is love always a mutual feeling?Would my infatuation convert to love only when he starts to show that he likes me too..I wanna know..</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>Too many questions!Sleep is taking its toll on me..and by the ways..I'm writing after ages..I missed my blog..I went to goa..I had a blast..I hate to study..I hate getting up early in the morning for college..I hate goin to the college..I hate it when two people who are in love..Fight.</strong><br /><br /><strong>I just dont get the logic..Im confused..why do the expectations go sky high..that it needs some one from Krypton to fetch them back?Why do we behave like we have some supernatural powers of always being right..and the other person is merely a mis-take!</strong><br /><br /><strong>So whats more important?Time?Love?or Patience?Tell me..</strong><br /><br /><strong>Ohkay..What do u think happens in love?Do u own the other person?or..The person belongs to you?Or you belong to each other?</strong><br /><br /><strong>Is love just enough to take care of us?Or do we need more of it?Or more of other things?</strong><br /><br /><strong>Am i sounding really confused here?I think I am..I think I must stop..think some more..and write again after sometime..Meanwhile..Meanwhile..</strong><br /><br /><strong></strong><br /><br /><strong><span style="font-size:85%;color:#990000;"></span></strong></span>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-4869238931779961792008-08-16T15:32:00.008+05:302008-08-16T20:23:44.098+05:30Of course It happens!!<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#663333;"><strong><span style="color:#990000;">Two months ago..when I was studyin hard for my exam the next day..keepin in mind that it has to go on like this for the coming two more months ( also keepin in mind that if I dont study now ,Im gonna flunk)..I was cursing my luck..cursing my fate..cursing the course..and cursing the Mount Everest sylabus..Just one..The only one thing that comforted me at that time..was..There's gonna be a time when I wont even see these fatso books...( 'eent'- Brick..as I like to call them)..forget about the reading,mugging and puking cycle..they'l be gone..and I wud be having the fun of a lifetime!! lGosh! And look at what happened!! Look at me!! Im a girl who's exams finished 10 days ago( bloody 10 days!)..and she still hasnt seen 'Jaane tu'..and 'Batman- dark night[knight rider..as my sis likes to call it!!]'(Yeah..Dpk..u cud laugh at me once more!!)..<br />Well...not that i didnt try for them..I did go! With a hope..a big one at that..Two theatres..!I didnt like the timings of the movie at first one ..so went to check out at another one(now..keep a newspaper always with ya when u go out for a movie...coz u dont wanna end up the way I did!!!)..well..In the second theatre..there was no show( what else were they showcasing huh..?male striptease act!!?) Whatever!!<br />And so..we went back to the first one..only to discover that the show was sold out!!<br />( Now..my luck seems to be goin on the same track when I think of choosing a boyfriend!)<br />I was hell mad at that time!I could have killed someone!!<br />But anyways..me and my bro decided to eat at Pizza hut(or was it Dominoes..?)..and ..while I was still eating my last slice of pizza..my bro got up and began to walk away!!..<br />Me: ''What the hell is ur problem!!...Koi ladki teri girlfriend ban hi nahi sakti..!!Cant u see Im still eating!!''<br />Seems like the curse hardly made a difference to him..coz he's still on fone everynight!!..and Look at me!!Damn!<br /><br />I had an amazing viva 10 days ago..The person made sure..that for not one moment I could have enough guts to look into his eyes and answer him..and made sure that the patient I was assigned..completly believed that I was a complete idiot with no knowledge of my subject whatsoever!Humiliation is too small a word for it..I guess it was one of those moments when I wud just wanna be invisible! poof! I dont exist!..Now that exactly didnt happen..but the person sure made me feel that way!<br />God! the result's still pending..I hope the external from hell(now u HAD to be there to understand what he was saying in his stupid accent!! Whenever he said sth..I wud furrow my forehead..with a stupid expression on my face..tryin to understand wht he was trying to tell me- and so..'TUBERCULOSIS' became 'TUBURLLOM'..and the furrows on my forehead deepened!)<br />I was doomed!.. me and my friend(joint viva) came out of the hospital ward...wiping the sweat off our foreheads..and evryone pounced on us! 'What happened..!! It took u guys 25 mins!!''<br />When I heard that I was about to well...faint...coz to me it seemed like an eternity..I mean..I cud have found a guy..fallen in love with him..told my parents about him...gotten married..even have babies in that time. And they say it was just 25 mins! Ha!<br /><br />Aftermath:My educated patient..adds me on orkut and scraps me.."Hey ...how was the viva..will u pass in it?hehehe!!''...My reply..''Hopefully..why do u ask?''...Patient, "Nothing..Didnt seem like it!!hehe!!''..Aarrgghh!!<br /><br />Talkin on orkut..well..the past seems to crop up...and big time this time..There's this school community where not many people post their comments..dunno why..one of my ex classmate..Mr.W posted that he wanted to apologize to sm1 with whom he faught over 50 bucks!..Now..all that I wrote was..'' Yaar de do iske 50 rs jisne bhi liye hain'' (keepin good spirit in it ;) )...And boy..!! did he lose it!! I mean what!!!Now he's messagin me..cursing me ..askin ppl for my mail id...I mean ive had people following me..but not this kind!! haha!! [if u really wanna know what all happened..ask me..alag se!]<br /><br />Right..finally..the icing on the cake...is my phone..'was' actually..its no more..one fine day..when Im out..bugger ditches me..gets switched off..I come back home..plug in the charger..and..it doesnt respond..like a comatose patient..and just as u talk to a coma patient..thinkin that he's able to listen to u..but doesnt respond..I gave my cellphone the choicest of the blessings..!! No wonder..It never got switched on!!and is dead forever(and now i really believe that some of my 'cellfone curses' got backfired!!)..With all my contacts..messages that I had saved for more than a year..My pics.. :( [i know..pity me..]..poof! gone!<br /><br />And u hve no idea how it is like to beg in front of ur bro..(who hs 3 cellfones) to give u just one..temporarily..and being refused for that!!( happy rakhi!!) hehehe!!<br />Right..so all those people who call me now..I really dunno..who's who..and I end up missing all the calls!!LOL!!<br /><br />So tell me..do u really see me enjoyin? I dont..I cud go back to the 'bricks'..and make houses outta those..atleast I wud see new people!!<br />And yeah by the way..Hows my new pic?? hehe..I know it looks like..''Aww..I have the most beautiful pair of eyes '' and all that crap..but what the heck!!I never took it..so..hardly a thing! ;)<br /><br />In another 10 days..my coll will reopen..and I will have to return to new 'bricks'..my life seems to sad rite now..When actually it had to be great..but..this is just the tip of the frustation..[ u could always comment about my new pic though..keepin in mind that Im sad thing rite now..!!] (!!)<br /><br />Now more important thing...Never, ever go hungry to watch a movie..!!And specially if the movie intermission is for like..umm ..10 seconds..coz..u never know..u might not even have enough money to go back home..really..this happened with me...and dont ask about the movie..!!<br />Mummy!! hehehe!! Returns! damn![actually I dont even remember the full name of the movie..all I rem..was me yelling out at those stupid action scenes..''Kuch bhi hota hai kya ismein?!''...and hi-fiving my friend after every 5 minutes..!![for some really stupid special effects!]..<br />and so I came outta theatre like a burnt victim..red palms..with a hole burned in my pocket! ;)<br /><br />Finishing off..on a good note...today was My day!! I robbed my bro and cousins..!! And now Im rich! Hehehe..I love rakshabandhan!!The only day for girls( and bhai..I dont think I wud react to what u say in response to this!! lol)<br />Hmm..I guess im done for this time..This is like..a lot of updates!!<br />[and guess what..now that I shared it..Im feeling better already...sob! sob!]<br />Hehehe!!<br /><br /></span><br /></strong></span></span><span style="color:#993300;"></span><span style="color:#993300;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#993399;"></span></span>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-29278391434220711592008-07-06T19:15:00.003+05:302008-07-07T00:12:18.067+05:30The purpose.. :)<strong><span style="color:#330033;">May 25th was the last post..Im such a irregularly irregular person!Im not even regular at being irregular..and Hey..talking of the may 25th post..I got like million comments(not in written)..all asking 'why? why?'..umm..why..i just felt like it..;) No more whys!Though I feel it got too,too depressing..!Ah! I just get carried away at times...and yeah that kinda stuff will come up every now and then..until I sort out!and thats gonna happen pretty soon..coz..my Final exams are comin up in the next 10 days..damn!I have to get sorted out!Coz 6 months is a long time!;)<br />Righto...Ive titled it 'The purpose' coz it sounds like the name of some oscar winning movie like 'The departed'..and whatever..(bad humor..i know)..u'd eventually come to know about 'The purpose'..chill!<br />So last week..(when I should have been studyin day and night...)I was watchin oscar winning movies..I watched 'blood diamond'..I must say the movie was quite moving..and even if I had 13 hearts( a cockroach has 13 hearts)..I cud have given all of them to just Leonardo..He's brilliant..The reality of the movie hit me..and I kept on thinkin after the movie about it..and I looked at my diamond earrings in the mirror...cud they be..umm..I hope not...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#330033;">One thing about Leonardo..why does he have to die in the end in all of his movies??Thats kiddish observation I know..but if I recall..Titanic,Departed,Blood Diamond..My advice to those hollywood directors and scriptwriters..keep him alive dudes..he's worth a lot more when he's alive.!!<br />Anyway..then..I saw 'Micheal Clayton'..sheesh!I mean good..u make an oscar winning movie..and u have George Clooney in it..(and George Clooney has so much to him..the eyes..the smile..the fact that he's not gay despite the rumors)..but atleast have a bloody background score.!!I mean seriously,I think that the background score is the more important aspect of a movie..( think Titanic..and I think of me weeping everytime they showed Rose and Deadman separating!) Pstt!!! I watched half of the movie(michael clayton) once when I cudnt sleep in the afternoon and it took me 4 days to continue with the rest of the movie!But plz for god's sake!!! give them the oscars..but atleast have such dialogues that people like me can understand..or..put me on the oscar jury!;)<br />Next.A mighty heart...Love u Angelina!She's perfect..she's so damn perfect with her acting(the former perfect was for her pout,eyes,hair,skin..no no..dont think otherwise..i still say im happy that george clooney is not gay!!)..in the movie she has a thick french accent..(that hardly seems french though)..but whatevr it is..she's perfect at that too..its a sad sad movie..but i dunno i have a thing for sad movies..they're like there in the mind for years..and this one stays for more than that.umm..mighty heart hasnt won any oscars,has it?anyway..this one deserves..Put me on the jury i say!! </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#330033;">I watched 'city of angels'..for like the 100th time last week..It is SOME movie!!Generally,i dont like nicholas cage( for burning a hole in my pocket to buy tickets to movies like 'World Trade Centre','Wickerman','Ghostrider')..but in this movie he plays an angel..and I just love the way he looks at Meg Ryan!mwah!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#330033;">Im a big movie freak!I guess its a great utilisation of the 'vella' time(read exams)!!On a date a guy first asked me when the movie started,''Do u like watching the movie chup-chaap or with comments in between?''. Me...''hehe..chup-chaap of course!!''. He was chup-chaap even at the lunch that followed the movie!! Now now,special mention..I prefer talkin in between the movie when im watchin it for the second time(Bhai..i know you're reading it!!)</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#330033;">I dunno why am I writng about movies here..Hey..see someday if I star into one! How would that be..!! Ok not hollywood,bollywood atleast..wow! then I cud compete Aamir Khan's blog!!(yeah, I heard so many 'Whatevers!')</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#330033;">But its a good thing..I cud write here about the movies that I see in times to come!anhaan!!</span></strong><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#330033;">By the ways,have I left 'The purpose' behind..??I will return with the purpose..!I have to!</span></strong>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-10579120572989076802008-05-25T20:52:00.006+05:302008-05-25T21:53:37.759+05:30Random<strong><em><span style="color:#993300;">I dunno what I should write here today..I never am sure..but today I feel like an angry guitarist,mad at the world..mad at the fate..life..mad at everything ever created..everything that ever took birth..Crazy..Disgusted..Aloof...Sunk.<br />Im like a guitarist today who wud play his music until his fingers bleed..until his head aches.Until he's given up...Until he knows its enough.So deep in thoughts and madness that he's given up the fight for air.The struggle has been put to rest.Who knows nuthin about anything..but knows just one thing..That there's no afterlife.And thanks God for that.<br />Ive been accused of going into a 'Shell'..Ive been persuaded to come outta it time and again..I wish it was as easy as easily its said..I wish things were that easy to share all the time..half of everyone's troubles would have put to rest then.Life would have been so damn easy..<br />Today I can define some things clearly..A rope that Im holding and all my world is clung to its other end..the rope's slipping..but its not dragging me with it..perhaps my world just shrunk and weighs less now..perhaps my world doesn't want me..perhaps I want to be proved wrong..perhaps..'Perhaps' was never a word..<br />Clarity..is all that I want..Certainty is what I crave for..helplessness is what I loathe..I wish things were simpler..and simpler things were handled even more simply.I wish I was never this helpless ..this helpless..<br />I wish I were a supergirl.I wish I were god.I wish I was so many people at so many times.I wish I wasnt me this time.I wish I laughed without a sad thought at the back of my mind.I wish I cud clarify my thoughts.I wish I could just do something about somethings.I wish I could break all the shells.And sell off my mind somewhere.<br />I so badly wish I was a guitarist.I so badly wish I could just sing..shout..yell..scream..<br />I wish I had less shades of blue and more of yellow..I wish I cud just lie dormant and close my eyes..with no thought..no worry..no pain in me.<br />Shines! bright Shines! Laughters!Smiles!cant things always just be about them?<br />I feel like a sad angry guitarist who wants no answers to his questions..Who wants all the answers to all his questions..Who doesnt give a damn to the world outside his world..Who's connected somewhere..somewhere he doesnt wanna get disconnected from..<br />Kick all the hopes..forget about everything..Dont look into the mirror..Go off to sleep..Dream..Dream about things u always wanted to happen to you..Shut down.<br />Think of a place where everyone was happy with evryone.Think of a place where Ive never been to.Love.Laugh.Smile.Smile with spark in ur eyes.And speak no word.no plans.no desires.no burns.no bruises.no shells.no walls.<br />Just me and my world.<br />Its never too much to ask for.</span></em></strong>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-21311508308912730612008-05-04T12:52:00.003+05:302008-05-04T13:59:32.889+05:30Come on..Fall..!!<p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>This is a funny little story about three gals.</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Caution: The story might get a little too funny..and u might tend to fall off the place ur sittin at..(in case ur not sitting anywhr..I suggest u should)..!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Alright..3 cute..goodlooking..sexy gals..(Im gettin paid for writng these words..)</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Time:3:30 pm</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Date:2oth april</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Place:Sector 15,Chandigarh</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>The three cute gals thought that they would save rupees 20 that day..and so..they didnt hire a cab or an auto..intsead..they went cheap..went by a rickshaw(I told u gals..!! this really sounds so cheap)</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Ohk..ok..people travel by rickshaws all the time..Im sure u must have too..If not..then..go,get a life!!;)</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Ehmm..lemme describe the rickshaw puller..lean..probably 90 yrs old..big specs..(i guess with those on his eyes ..he cud see my electrons and protons..and evryone's else's too-they were that thick!)..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Desciption of the gals:cute..goodlooking..sexy( using any other word is forbidden!)</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>So the gals sat on the rickshaw on a hot summer after noon..(just in case u dunno whr they were heading to..they were goin for lunch.at this famous chineese restaurant)..the rickhaw puller begins to...wel..pull...(with three gals on his rickshaw..he didnt hve much options!)..All of a sudden..the red light crossing appears..the rickshaw speeds up...coz of the steeping road..and (I think..the richshaw wala was too busy staring at the electrons of the road..or was drunk..or..sleepy..I dont care what he was!!)..and..the rickshaw begins to just slide down..as if it had no brakes..he was to turn to the other road..coz there was a footpath to the other side..but but...but...he didnt!! he didnt!!..and the intelligent gals realized it..and they started yelling at the top of their vioces...''AAAAAAaaaaaaa..!!!AAAA!!!''</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>[This yelling was special for two reasons..1. They all started to yell at the same time..2. Even if no one was actually lookin at what was going to happen..with the yells..they ENSURED that everyone looked at the scene] </strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>And it Hit!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>It hit bad!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>The gals came tumbling down to the road on a hot summer afternoon..carefully grabbing the attention of every single living being within a radius of 2 kms of that area..they fall on one by one...The one who fell first..just jumped on the footpath..The one who fell second..flew up in the air..tossed out like an omelet in a pan..and fell..and The third...damn!! She was kinda rebel...coz when she fell down..she just didnt fall alone...she took the rickshaw puller with her..(now..she is a wise gal...if u dont know yet..)..and she and the 90 yr old rickshaw puller..together rolled on the muddy footpath(ha! filmy!)..the gal fell with head first on the ground..and then everything followed..the other two gals in the mean time stood up and asked the third gal if she's ok and needs help..Like a true Warrior..Rebel..She declines..! And gets up on her own..with a bruised elbow..and leg..!!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>The 90yr old..says...'ur fault'..the gals were too busy to notice this..and tell him to get the hell outta that place..Stood up..they pic up their bags..shed the dust of their clothes..and begin laughin like crazy..(never seen 3 people laugh so madly before)..[sometimes just a horrified look on ur frnds face..gives the laugh reflex..and thats when its most funny...and that is what actually happend that day]..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Enter a 'car wala'...honk..honk..honk...'' Are u okay?? Are u alright?'' the gals were too embarrassed to reply..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Enter an autowala.."Madam..how did this all happen..hehehe!!..Madam how did this..hahaa...happen..hehe...madam..haha..I'll drop u...haha..but how...haha!!''</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>The third gals pics up her bad..and drags her bruised body to the auto ( She later realises..that the headfones to her ipod are broken..the headsets to 2nd gal's cellfone are broken too)..They all sit..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*Silence</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*Exchange of looks</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*Laughs!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*More Laughs!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>They fell upon each other laughin..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Enter:Famous chineese restaurant..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*Silence again..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>(gals look for a table..)</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*They sit</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*Silence</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>(They look at each other's faces..)</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>*Laughs..! more laughs...they laughed..until the restaurant guys increase the vol of the music..(so that the ambiance of the restaurant is not interfered with..)</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Enter: other friends..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Enter:madness !!!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>So that was the funny story..If u didnt find it funny...dont try telling me..!!;) </strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>This is a perfect funny experience...!nuthin else cud be funnier for three college frnds..live comedy..they're the stars!and they're stupid..and they're never travelling by a rickshaw again.!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>There are some things that happen in life.. about which if u just think..u start smiling..but this one has surpassed everything..we sit..and remember..and laugh...laugh like crazy..</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Its an adventure gone misadventure..!I dont want anymore of these..!coz this one has got printed in our minds forever..!</strong></span></p><p><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>So people..c'mon fall..I bet u cant fall like us! :)</strong></span></p>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-83575924224152684072008-04-29T20:16:00.004+05:302008-04-29T21:54:10.211+05:30Message Pending...Arrgghh..Im so irritated right now..!!Someone on orkut just asked me if I were a girl coz he thought I was married..jerk!I gave him the proper dosage of what he reqd.!jerk...!!!<br /><br />Anyway..this is not the thing that I was gonna write about..(jerk!)..yeah..There's this thing that I wrote long back..in my cellfone actually...Quite depressing(quite opposite to my mood rite now)..but I think that since I have it till today..it deserves to be here..<br /><br />I remember those days..man!I had dropped a year for my medical entrances..It seemed like the end of the world to me.I mean, I thought that it was the last year of my life practically..but I just survived under the pressure..Luckily I came out alive..and Im sure Im not the only one who had to go through the Drop Year Trauma...Its sucks yaar..I think of it now..and the only thing that I can think of is..That i dont wanna think about it..!!Alright..Im happy to be where Im now(As if i have an option!)..:)<br /><br />One thing's for sure now..No more entrances for me..I'll rather kill myself.!(no..Im not depressed..Im just too flamboyant today)...Ive heard this a lot of time..(From my drunken friends actually)..'I wish God made a perfect partner for me..and he/she just walked up to me and said hi!'...Hello!! How about..'God made some post grad arrangements for me and the university walks upto me to say..come on baby!!! ugh! Anyways..I know God's not listenin..ehm..readin i mean..!!( He never does!!!)<br /><br />(Just wondering again..how could that jerk say that I looked like a married woman..damn!! damn!)<br />Okay..okay..im cool..!<br />Yeah..Its something about Life I wrote 4 years ago..I was too Depressed..Annoyed..and possibly wanted to kill myself..(ofcourse i didnt);)<br /><br />I guess the pending mesaage has to get delivered today.<br /><br />You are not what u think you are.<br />Coz you are what your life teaches you about you.<br />Your life aint your follower.<br />Its your boss as your fate.<br />Its a mockery as your past..sarcastic joke as your present.<br />It shows you the path,derails you and asks you to put yourselves back.<br />Its the mirage that u see on a hot desert afternoon.<br />Rainbow that is made by harshness of the sun and loss of the clouds..still it is beautiful to you.<br />Colors that have to disappear.<br />Emptiness that has to emerge.<br />Darkness that descends upon you.<br />Madness that encircles you.<br />Life is yours.Deal with it.Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-65690308292817998582008-04-15T18:38:00.003+05:302008-04-15T19:27:17.220+05:30<p><strong><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;">Its been more than a month now..and I would not say that I<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">'ve</span> been too busy to write anything..instead..Ive been listless..clueless..and I choose this very day to write <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">coz</span> its the peak of my listlessness ..Lemme see what I write when I have nothing to write about..</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">As a kid in school I used to interchange a lot of words..'Alone' and 'Lonely' were one of those..But as I<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">'ve</span> grown up and seen enough people and world around me.I can say when I feel alone and when <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">lonley</span>..Alone is not <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">something</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">wud</span> say that I am..Being Lonely is a curse..</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">Its like u think for hours over <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">nuthin</span>..spoil your sleep over <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">nuthn</span>..u think of things in a boring lecture..while <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">watchin</span> TV..think of things while u r with <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">ur</span> friends..sometimes..even when <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">dealin</span> with a patient..thinking of Emptiness..The Stark reality of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">ur</span> life..<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">thinkin</span> of when will u get a chance to prove <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">ur</span> worth..to be able to look into future and be able to say..'I<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">m</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">doin</span> good right now'.To think of the efforts u r putting into <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">someting</span>,anything..and say that they're worth it..to be able to love <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">urself</span> despite the hundred billion faults in u..to fight with the past.. </span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">Sometimes..things seem so uncertain..<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">frnds</span> and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">frndships</span> seem momentary..temporary..Of how in the end I<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">m</span> one person..and just a One Single Person.</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">Why are people bound by <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">boundations</span>..why <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">arent</span> we true to everyone..why do I have to think of what to talk and more importantly..what not to talk.!why is it that we get misunderstood just on the basis of what we say..why cant people be understood and judged on the basis of what they feel about u..and not what they say?</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">And how life changes..its an irony..all the people I was good pals with in school..now are lost <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">somewhr</span>..not wanting to be found and pulled back.Why do I have so many virtual <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">frndships</span> now that would never terminate into real <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">frndships</span>..and why despite all this I call myself Practical.?</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">I liked the carefree..restless world of school..Fun! Happy! Useless!Funny!not one thing on my mind to think about..not one grudge..not one guilt.not one disliking.no hatred.no dodging.Plain.Simple. Stupid.Funny.Impractical.Dreamer.Me.</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_27">dont</span> hate being a human being of this age either..but there's not much fun left.Why are 'Irritation' and 'Expectation'..such big..ugly..painful words?And why am I always caught <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_28">somewhr</span> between them?Always <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_29">dyin</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_30">coz</span> of them?Why am i always in pain <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_31">coz</span> of them?</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">Can I have a better life.? Can I not?Miles to go before i sleep..Where each mile seems like a light year.</span></strong></p>Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-68234025978895234432008-03-20T22:08:00.001+05:302008-03-20T22:35:01.420+05:30Date-storm!!Ta-da!! stupid things happen to stupid people and people like me make stupid things happen(in more then one respect..lol..here though im being specific about the dating scene!)..well..however exciting it might sound ..the thought of meeting some person for the first time..goin on a date..spending a date..the fact is..it sucks in the end..this entire datng thing has been a disaster to me..i wish i could just give away the details to let everyone believe..but then i dont wanna be the laughin stock!hehe..!!<br />I give my best shot..getting ready..tryin many dresses..eating up my frnds head..'do i look good in this?'..'too revealing?'..'too plain?'..'too desperate?'..and what not!and finally when i ready..thr always always a thing that never plays along..! my Hair!! never! never!aarrghh!but anyways..lill flaws 'hair' and there are acceptable ..even welcome..when i see my date!..my thought..'wish i was bald!'..haha..this could get quite controversial..and isi vajah se im writing this too realy in the blog coz only a few people know about my blog it rite now..i can bare the truth!<br />Honey's money!...money issues..too confusing yaar..where do i spend..how much..equal to him?do i let him spend?am i worth it..is he worth it..!(plz dont kill me!!)<br />meeting strangers..be very very careful..they could already have girlfriends!!LOL!<br />meeting common friends..dont! go too close!! sudden outburst of emotions in the other person wil force him to embrace u..!!*cough *cough!im suffocating!!..Leave me alone!!<br />i just hope i dont deserve hell after posting it..!mercy!<br />tried and tested things..meet friends..!!meet in a group of people..that ways u run lesser chances of getting bored to death..or even even an asthma attack!*cough!<br />P.S. i would go to any lengths to be with the guy i like..i adore..but..ive gotta give up this habbit of unknown dates..coz i cant afford more posts like these..Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-83797962036269399012008-03-05T20:35:00.003+05:302008-03-05T21:10:55.438+05:30Walkin the Sleepwalk!I sleepwalk in the true sense of the word..but i sleepwalk during the day..coz im too busy sleeping at nite..i dream..dream a lot..but i dream during the day..coz in the nite im too busy sleepin..there is this element of sleep that never leaves me..and so..i Sleep-walk!<br />i dunno why do i have to think so much writing in here..its my blog rite..i can rite anything here..rite?anything?well..lets see..winters!!(we talk about weather all the time ..when we have nothing to talk about)..i love winters..getting packed in layers of clothes..not having to face the stupid sun..and being able to roam about at any hour of the day..summers on the other hand..are..gross!! winter blues..i get winter blues when winters are leaving..!!so just like joey says when he turns 30..''why god! why!..we talked rite!" summers are sweaty..! winters are sleepy! :)<br />Enough of my weather talk! i guess u got my point! nothin to talk about..i dunno how much and how deep to write..tell me..Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6266274711033198756.post-2708065592129681142008-03-04T22:52:00.003+05:302008-03-04T23:21:17.745+05:30Disaster management"Kuch toh likh ismein'' was my first unofficial comment for my first post..ok..so here i write..hehe!!<br />so how do u manage a disaster..!! disaster in ur own life..in the life of someone u love so intensly(no..not my bf..)..ugh!! management..i suck at it!!Amazishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06671047512222298658noreply@blogger.com5