Friday, December 31, 2010

The year,as I saw it.

Its strange how something exciting,out of the normal thing happens on a boring day,that changes the way we remember that day in future forever.No,No..this aint an intro to something utterly nice that happened to me today that I wanna share with everyone.Relax.Its not facebook.and Im still me.
Anyway,compare it with a lifetime and if you really had to pick up a year that kind of molded your life to come,would you pick up 2010.? I would.

To begin with..I really struggled with living alone.Agreed, I'm not much of a people's person,but living all alone can be really tricky sometimes.The boredom kills!plays with your mind.Turns you into a maniac!
Lesson learnt..you're not Joan of arc.You cant live alone and be sane at the same time.
This was the year when after years of 'Trying to lose weight' and 'No thanx,Im on a diet' I finally started to lose weight.I was a happy girl with all the gyming and aerobics going for me.Little did I know..
Bam!
I fall sick.Like really sick.I get hospitalised for the first time and become painfully thin(by my own standards,of course)!Took away all the credit from my working out.Cruel,isn't it?
Lesson learnt..you can get very sick sometimes and the 'sick -sympathies' are a pain after a while.Keep workin out,coz that yearning for food is in your genes,blood,whatever.

I party-ed a lot.And i struggled to keep up with friendships this year.Almost all my friends' converstaions started with,'where the hell are you'.
The fact was.I was nowhere.I was coping up with my self-made norms and useless distinctions.Trying to replace my friends with my laptop and iPod.
Lesson learnt..a lot of guys think that every drunk(read tipsy) girl is their girlfriend.And always stay in touch with friends.

I discovered my love for cooking.
I blogged very less.
I lost a bit of my sense of humor.
I became a dentist.
I struggled with relationships.

I discovered how sometimes,I lock horns with everyone and want to be alone and miserable by choice.
Lesson learnt.Dont. and lower your expectations.It only makes you better.Never drink alone.

There have been times when Ive risen like a phoenix and fallen like a dead bird.There have been times when my brains just burst like a hot volcano with a piece of my brain falling on everyone I cared about.
Lesson learnt..you never are that close to anyone in life that they can bear the brunt of your moods.not family,not love,not friends.And you are on your own.So u better not be evil.

You are what you think you are.and this year I've been a loser,a depressed case,a loner and a dentist.
Somehow I wanted to change that.All of these things.I did.Now I am,still a dentist,pursuing to be something else.But I'm not a loser,loner or anything else.Im a believer.
And i believe that if it weren't for the things that happened to me this year,I would have been still the same person that I was getting tired of.

All said and done.Goodbye 2010.I'll never forget you.


8 comments:

Anonymous said...

When things start working out for you.. you start seeing things more clearly..

looks like things have started working out.. make the most of it...

good luck...

Arjun M said...

Rough 2010 here too!!

Anonymous said...

m happy for u 4 being poised in such kinda situation ...n things will b better ahead..this was js a phase which passed away ..with som taint, which will fade away wid time !!

Saurabh khurana said...

one thing i liked never drink alone but i would like to add on that if its sadness drink alone..............

insouciant iks said...

tu kab bimar hui, aur ye jo fb pe dp laayi thi wo bimari ka nateeja tha, bhagwan aisi bimari mjhe bh de de, so i cn turn my 6 fold tummy to 6 pack,

congrats on becoming dentist

Anonymous said...

Loved ur writing style. Do dentists get time for this?? lol

2011 will be awesome :)

Atleast it can't get any worse ;)

vishal said...

bad 2010 this side also... but seriously the way u wrote took heart out..

hope everything goes fine with u this year 2011

ashhhh said...

I could totally connect with ur thoughts here- loneliness boredom living alone. I've come to terms with these things lately. But it has been difficult. And it precipitates occasionally..