Sunday, May 25, 2008
Im like a guitarist today who wud play his music until his fingers bleed..until his head aches.Until he's given up...Until he knows its enough.So deep in thoughts and madness that he's given up the fight for air.The struggle has been put to rest.Who knows nuthin about anything..but knows just one thing..That there's no afterlife.And thanks God for that.
Ive been accused of going into a 'Shell'..Ive been persuaded to come outta it time and again..I wish it was as easy as easily its said..I wish things were that easy to share all the time..half of everyone's troubles would have put to rest then.Life would have been so damn easy..
Today I can define some things clearly..A rope that Im holding and all my world is clung to its other end..the rope's slipping..but its not dragging me with it..perhaps my world just shrunk and weighs less now..perhaps my world doesn't want me..perhaps I want to be proved wrong..perhaps..'Perhaps' was never a word..
Clarity..is all that I want..Certainty is what I crave for..helplessness is what I loathe..I wish things were simpler..and simpler things were handled even more simply.I wish I was never this helpless ..this helpless..
I wish I were a supergirl.I wish I were god.I wish I was so many people at so many times.I wish I wasnt me this time.I wish I laughed without a sad thought at the back of my mind.I wish I cud clarify my thoughts.I wish I could just do something about somethings.I wish I could break all the shells.And sell off my mind somewhere.
I so badly wish I was a guitarist.I so badly wish I could just sing..shout..yell..scream..
I wish I had less shades of blue and more of yellow..I wish I cud just lie dormant and close my eyes..with no thought..no worry..no pain in me.
Shines! bright Shines! Laughters!Smiles!cant things always just be about them?
I feel like a sad angry guitarist who wants no answers to his questions..Who wants all the answers to all his questions..Who doesnt give a damn to the world outside his world..Who's connected somewhere..somewhere he doesnt wanna get disconnected from..
Kick all the hopes..forget about everything..Dont look into the mirror..Go off to sleep..Dream..Dream about things u always wanted to happen to you..Shut down.
Think of a place where everyone was happy with evryone.Think of a place where Ive never been to.Love.Laugh.Smile.Smile with spark in ur eyes.And speak no word.no plans.no desires.no burns.no bruises.no shells.no walls.
Just me and my world.
Its never too much to ask for.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
This is a funny little story about three gals.
Caution: The story might get a little too funny..and u might tend to fall off the place ur sittin at..(in case ur not sitting anywhr..I suggest u should)..!
Alright..3 cute..goodlooking..sexy gals..(Im gettin paid for writng these words..)
The three cute gals thought that they would save rupees 20 that day..and so..they didnt hire a cab or an auto..intsead..they went cheap..went by a rickshaw(I told u gals..!! this really sounds so cheap)
Ohk..ok..people travel by rickshaws all the time..Im sure u must have too..If not..then..go,get a life!!;)
Ehmm..lemme describe the rickshaw puller..lean..probably 90 yrs old..big specs..(i guess with those on his eyes ..he cud see my electrons and protons..and evryone's else's too-they were that thick!)..
Desciption of the gals:cute..goodlooking..sexy( using any other word is forbidden!)
So the gals sat on the rickshaw on a hot summer after noon..(just in case u dunno whr they were heading to..they were goin for lunch.at this famous chineese restaurant)..the rickhaw puller begins to...wel..pull...(with three gals on his rickshaw..he didnt hve much options!)..All of a sudden..the red light crossing appears..the rickshaw speeds up...coz of the steeping road..and (I think..the richshaw wala was too busy staring at the electrons of the road..or was drunk..or..sleepy..I dont care what he was!!)..and..the rickshaw begins to just slide down..as if it had no brakes..he was to turn to the other road..coz there was a footpath to the other side..but but...but...he didnt!! he didnt!!..and the intelligent gals realized it..and they started yelling at the top of their vioces...''AAAAAAaaaaaaa..!!!AAAA!!!''
[This yelling was special for two reasons..1. They all started to yell at the same time..2. Even if no one was actually lookin at what was going to happen..with the yells..they ENSURED that everyone looked at the scene]
And it Hit!
It hit bad!
The gals came tumbling down to the road on a hot summer afternoon..carefully grabbing the attention of every single living being within a radius of 2 kms of that area..they fall on one by one...The one who fell first..just jumped on the footpath..The one who fell second..flew up in the air..tossed out like an omelet in a pan..and fell..and The third...damn!! She was kinda rebel...coz when she fell down..she just didnt fall alone...she took the rickshaw puller with her..(now..she is a wise gal...if u dont know yet..)..and she and the 90 yr old rickshaw puller..together rolled on the muddy footpath(ha! filmy!)..the gal fell with head first on the ground..and then everything followed..the other two gals in the mean time stood up and asked the third gal if she's ok and needs help..Like a true Warrior..Rebel..She declines..! And gets up on her own..with a bruised elbow..and leg..!!
The 90yr old..says...'ur fault'..the gals were too busy to notice this..and tell him to get the hell outta that place..Stood up..they pic up their bags..shed the dust of their clothes..and begin laughin like crazy..(never seen 3 people laugh so madly before)..[sometimes just a horrified look on ur frnds face..gives the laugh reflex..and thats when its most funny...and that is what actually happend that day]..
Enter a 'car wala'...honk..honk..honk...'' Are u okay?? Are u alright?'' the gals were too embarrassed to reply..
Enter an autowala.."Madam..how did this all happen..hehehe!!..Madam how did this..hahaa...happen..hehe...madam..haha..I'll drop u...haha..but how...haha!!''
The third gals pics up her bad..and drags her bruised body to the auto ( She later realises..that the headfones to her ipod are broken..the headsets to 2nd gal's cellfone are broken too)..They all sit..
*Exchange of looks
They fell upon each other laughin..
Enter:Famous chineese restaurant..
(gals look for a table..)
(They look at each other's faces..)
*Laughs..! more laughs...they laughed..until the restaurant guys increase the vol of the music..(so that the ambiance of the restaurant is not interfered with..)
Enter: other friends..
So that was the funny story..If u didnt find it funny...dont try telling me..!!;)
This is a perfect funny experience...!nuthin else cud be funnier for three college frnds..live comedy..they're the stars!and they're stupid..and they're never travelling by a rickshaw again.!
There are some things that happen in life.. about which if u just think..u start smiling..but this one has surpassed everything..we sit..and remember..and laugh...laugh like crazy..
Its an adventure gone misadventure..!I dont want anymore of these..!coz this one has got printed in our minds forever..!
So people..c'mon fall..I bet u cant fall like us! :)